Post St Patty's day Post!

sigh. Working lots of Cookie Booths to support the Girl Scouts. Some of them actually with my Girl Scout! So frustrated with so many things in my life.

Work/Subbing - love not having to bring anything home with me but am so bored when I just hand out a worksheet and babysit. Last week with OGT was even worse. Then the teacher (who has been bad-mouthed by students all day as to how many days he is out and how, even when he is there, all he does is do worksheets) mentions that he heard that i didn't make the kids work when he stops in at the end of the day. You know what? I'm a sub. You want them to do more, don't take a day off!!! I take anything students say with a grain of salt, but...

Work/Editing - I'm so sick of not getting paid in a timely manner. 6 weeks later??? Seriously? Visa doesn't listen to that!! I'm so behind on money it isn't funny. I have six more opportunities sitting here to apply for. Need to get on that. Instead of whining...

Work/Tutoring - one student = fabulous. Mom is great about paying me and he is great. Other student (home instruction through Hilliard) sucks. Terrible about cancelling at the last minute. Just found out that I am supposed to be helping in all areas, not just math and science. Really??? I suck at World Studies. Had to call Scott to ask a question because I didn't know and couldn't find it in the textbook. sigh. Not liking home instruction!! Need more regular tutoring jobs.

Scouts - ready to move forward into my new position, can't. Hasn't been announced, yet. Hurry up and wait. The story of my life.

Family - ssdd. Alexis bored by everything if it isn't a video game. Five mile hike on a beautiful day with frogs and snakes sunning themselves - he is bored. Lizzie can't move past how put upon she is to do anything for anyone else. Scott was proud of himself that he folded clothes. Left mine and both kids' piled on my side of the bed, but he folded clothes. And bitch is still in contact. Whatever!!!

House - during what spare moment do I do anything beyond the basics? I'm just trying to keep in livable. I'm making dinner and trying to keep the living space decent. Can't buy groceries because we have no money. sigh.

My parents did say they would pay for my classes to get my certificate current. Very generous. Adds to the guilt in my life. grrr...

I guess this is the life I have made for myself. Just not really happy.

Tuesday, Feb 21, 2012

Monday is still Monday even on a Tuesday. A four day weekend and I'm more exhausted starting the week than I would have been after a two-day weekend. Go figure.

Frustrating day. First Grade. Half day when I thought it was a full day. She entered it wrong. So, I had a couple of hours. Barely. I had to be back at school because I had arranged for a conference for the boy at 3:45.  And tutoring at 4. Well, 4:20 as it turned out. Until 5:20. Then bank/Kroger. Then Abbi home. Except she forgot her backpack, so home and back again. Hobbit-ish. Got a project done in hours last week. Earned a $25 bonus on a $50 grade level project. Then got a $300 project done a week early. Will be in the hole by the time I get the sub pay and project pay. So hard to dig out of the deep hole I have dug. Need to schedule appt with financial advisor. If Hilliard could hire me right now with my experience and all, I would start at $45k. Don't want to. Need to. If I don't have a sub job tomorrow I need to call Roy, the HR guy and Karen, the financial gal.

Looking up!

So, things are getting better. I have been subbing. Both at Avery and at Davidson. Loving it. Worked 3.5 days last week. Booked for a day for next week. And, got another textbook project. Should only take about 2 days. And am tutoring a neighbor boy. And am going to be tutoring a home instruction child. So, keeping busy. Just as well that none of the other jobs worked out. Guess it is all for a reason!

Had labwork done. Thyroid is normal. A1C is 5.2. I'm officially no long diabetic. Woohoo!! Now to get back on the exercise bandwagon.

Got girl scheduled for high school. And starting the process of boy starting band next year. And selling Girl Scout cookies. And, boy is crossing over from Cub Scouts to Boy Scouts this weekend. And... it's always something, isn't it? Better than the alternative!!

Another day...

Another day. I wish another dollar! No subbing today. But, I had lunch with my friend Terri. I'm going to start helping her prep for classes and she will give me credit towards her classes. Which is perfect! I love her classes and it is something I've really missed. So, this will give us time to chat and I will get to attend her classes and I'll be helping her! Woohoo!!

Need to sub. But, didn't get a call for today. Taking tomorrow and Wednesday off already. Tuesday is Marcy. Wednesday is a dentist appt. Should have scheduled the dentist for Tuesday. Oh, well. Am helping Terri in the morning. As long as I use my time productively, it's all good.

Between editing jobs, too. My printer is on the fritz which is causing some headaches. I need to print, sign, scan my contract for the work I already finished, but I can't. The printer is claiming that a cartridge is empty. It isn't. And I replaced it. Not liking it! Grrr... Waste of money when the printer doesn't recognize a full cartridge. But, what do you do? I pulled it apart and cleaned the printhead. I've unplugged it. I've run maintenance on it. Frustrated!

Really enjoyed subbing high school. I guess if I have to go back to work, high school will be it. Although I would love a job where I don't feel responsible for people. I was really hoping stocking at Target would work out. I want a job that is mundane and has no direct responsibilities for people, right now. Tired of being responsible. The fear of failure. Constant stress of being in charge. Comes with parenthood to a certain extent. Well, it should, anyway. Not everyone feels that way.

Long time no see!

Okay. It's been a long time. I know. I have a lot of making up to do. But, in the mean time, I have a question:

Person A and Person B are in a relationship. Person B hurts A's feelings. Sincerely. Not just an, oh, cut you off in the lunch line type of hurt. Person B apologizes. Claims I'm really sorry for hurting you so much.  Then Person A continues to hurt Person B with the exact same action that hurt Person B in the first place. What are your thoughts??? Thanks!

Is this a good thing?

Okay. I'm making a new post. It is occurring after a night of imbibing with friends and I'm listening to Rachel Platten's Mr. Grinch. Hmmmm.

Anyway. Okay. I'm sorry I haven't posted. I know I was on pain killers for way too long. And i've been using alcohol for a while since then. Still using it, I suppose.

Hypothetical: Person A hurts Person B's feelings. In a big way. Person B expresses the hurt. A expresses i'm sorrry. I'm sorry that I hurt you so much. Person B accepts apology. Person A continues actions. What should person B do???


Tired all the time. No matter what. Sleep 8-9 hours. Nap 2 hours. Still tired... Surgery was still best option ever in life. But, anemia. And life...

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240.4 - January 24, 2011

I guess when I finally got up and moved it made a little bit of a difference!!! My body was ready to get rid of some of that weight, I think!!!

I went on bariatricchoice.com today and bought a lot of high protein bars, snacks, and hot cocoa mix. I know I haven't been getting as much protein in as I want. I tend not to eat a whole lot in any given day. What I eat is usually good protein, but I need to eat more. Yes, I really did just say that!!! So, I need to have some good choices around. Some of those I can buy in the grocery store. Other things I really need to get online. I didn't buy anything that had less than 15 grams of protein per serving. But I got a variety. So, hopefully that will help. And the cocoa mix just sounded good. I will probably share that with the kids. They should be having more protein, too.

Haven't gotten back to exercise, yet. Just working on stretching my ankle. I need to get the PT scheduled.

Finally got the hematologist scheduled. Still following up on why my iron is so low.

And, got in to the urologist. Following up on the kidney stone. Have a CT scan for that on Thursday. And, need to call and arrange the 24-hr urine collection.

In the meantime I have my cold which has pretty much just settled in my throat and causes me to talk funny and never know if I'm actually going to be able to make noise when I open my mouth.

Today, Lizzie started the Orthodontic Trail. Sigh. As if we had a couple thousand sitting around. Insurance only pays $1K. Our part is $4685. I'm so glad I have work projects! Of course, I was kind of hoping to use that money to help pay off some bills that we already had. Not new ones.

Oh, well. Life is never boring!!!